outraged and i dont know why

I just dont understand my feelings for you. i love you i do, but there is justin this ping of hate... i hate being there for you and doing things that you dont even appreciate anymore. im sick of it. i dont want to be there to feed you, give you a place to stay and on top of that organize your financial problems. you dont even know how to write a check without asking me how to do it. i dont like your friends right now especially with the fact that they dont give a fuck about you. honestly if they really were your friends they would postpone this movie shit you guys had and watch a damn movie another night.. fuck the movie ain't going to disappear and be gone forever. shit, you have wasted many months of doing nothing with your community service. you need 15 days and u even haven't started.... i know you said your scared shitless about working with criminals. but hey you commited a crime and its part of your punishment. fuck get advice from someone who's been there. sometimes i want you to move back to your parents house so that i dont have to be the one telling you and reminding you to do things. i honestly want to give up because i dont know what im fighting for anymore.